40.

[childrenoflilim]

There's no grave to visit here.  Maybe that's a good thing.  Still, it's easier to write than say so everyone can just ignore this, but....

Happy Mother's Day.  I promise I will find what I'm looking for.  I'll be alright.  And thank you, Mother, for everything.

Comments

[quicktoreward]

Sometimes having a grave to visit just makes it harder, I guess.

[childrenoflilim]

Yeah. It feels a lot more...final.

[quicktoreward]

Final is a good word for it.

[childrenoflilim]

It helps remembering that's not true.

[zuipperpips]

m-day huh
man comm time is super rude

[childrenoflilim]

It's not Mother's Day on your world?

[zuipperpips]

n its nvoember
*november

[childrenoflilim]

Wow...that's a big gap. You probably weren't even thinking about it until I said something. Sorry about that.

[redheadcarrier]

Mother's Day is stupid, anyway.

[childrenoflilim]

It can be lonely.

[redheadcarrier]

[Like hell she's admitting she's lonely.]

It's just stupid.

[childrenoflilim]

[like shinji would think asuka would.]

It's important to tell your mother you love them.

[ex_apocryphas39]

Whether it is typed or whether it is said, the form does not happen to matter.

To have expressed such a thing -- it is not bad.

[childrenoflilim]

It isn't bad, but it feels...heavy.

[ex_apocryphas39]

It is understandable.

To grant words to something of this nature, it is difficult.

[childrenoflilim]

She knew all about me. I can't remember a lot about her. Just that she was very kind.

It isn't fair.

( video; )

[jailbirds]

[ it's obvious that she didn't mean to post this at all, didn't intend to be recorded. she doesn't say anything, but she looks like she's been stung. there's a familiar tension in her expression, something tenuous on the verge of snapping, and she sits perfectly still for the brief video shinji receives. ]

( video; )

[childrenoflilim]

[that's right, minatsuki and her mother.... shinji takes a deep breath and exhales slow. he doesn't want to drive her away (again).]

H-hi.

[jailbirds]

[ confusion, the second of shock when she realises what's happened, and then she lashes out quickly, cutting out the video with a click more forceful than necessary.

the reply comes a few minutes later. ]

Hi.

[stillneedawish]

I'm sorry about your mother, Shinji-kun.

[childrenoflilim]

It's okay, Kaname-san. Thank you.

[stillneedawish]

I'm sure that wherever she is now, she's watching over you.

[heavenlyhome]

It is a good time to remember. Our mothers are with us, still, even after all this time. Perhaps you might light incence for her at a shrine, if you think she would have liked that, Shinji-kun.

[childrenoflilim]

That's...that's a good idea. I'm not sure where a shrine would be here, but maybe later. Thank you, Kasumi-san.

[heavenlyhome]

If there is not one near you, you might do it at home. That is what I have done. I am certain she would understand. It is the thought that counts, after all.