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[childrenoflilim]

It looks like the community translator is fixed.  I'm glad.  Guessing what people were saying was getting difficult.  And the cello's gone just like the note said, but you know, playing for people who care is...really nice.  So, um, thank you again for listening.

[fail private to kaworu]

The other night....

Where was that light coming from?

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[makewayforroze.livejournal.com]

I'm glad you made another post. I didn't get to tell you how well you did.

[childrenoflilim.livejournal.com]

Ah, thank you, Miss Rose. I'm glad you enjoyed my playing even if it wasn't that good.

[makewayforroze.livejournal.com]

Stop saying that. You were amazing!

[childrenoflilim.livejournal.com]

[can't you let him be self-effacing in peace, rose.]

Um, okay. Sorry I keep doing that.

[makewayforroze.livejournal.com]

[What? No]

Why aren't you proud?

[childrenoflilim.livejournal.com]

Why would I be?

[makewayforroze.livejournal.com]

Because you did a good job!

[childrenoflilim.livejournal.com]

It doesn't feel that way.

[makewayforroze.livejournal.com]

What would make you proud?

[childrenoflilim.livejournal.com]

I don't really know anymore.

[makewayforroze.livejournal.com]

What...happened to make you so hard on yourself?

[childrenoflilim.livejournal.com]

[everything.]

I don't really know that either.

[makewayforroze.livejournal.com]

Would you think about what you like to do? You don't have to answer now but, please, think about it.

[childrenoflilim.livejournal.com]

Um, okay. I'll get back to you soon, Miss Roze.

[killerbaseball.livejournal.com]

I suppose I can tell you now that you are a very talented violoncello player.

[childrenoflilim.livejournal.com]

You think so?

[killerbaseball.livejournal.com]

I said so, did I not?

[childrenoflilim.livejournal.com]

Well, yes, but...ah. Sorry, Mr. de Killer. And thank you.

[killerbaseball.livejournal.com]

Again, you have no need to apologise to me so often.

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[eschatologist.livejournal.com]

[and it does not take him long to notice - not really. does not take him long to realize it - the start of a question. the breech of some security. and it is vague enough. just vague enough. upon the wakening of realization. beyond the slow start of knowing. (unremembered. asleep. having occurred once. or twice. having occurred -)]

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[eschatologist.livejournal.com]

[it does not take him long to answer. to check or double check. does not take him long to answer. a question with a question:]

Which do you happen to mean?

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[childrenoflilim.livejournal.com]

At first, I thought I was crazy, but then I kept looking and...it was like a light from inside you.

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[eschatologist.livejournal.com]

[and it takes a moment to respond, but:]

I see.

You are certain, then?

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[childrenoflilim.livejournal.com]

The TV wasn't on. None of the kitchen lights are that bright. It couldn't have been from a car or streetlight. So I guess I'm pretty sure.


I guess.

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[eschatologist.livejournal.com]

...

You are not incorrect.

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[childrenoflilim.livejournal.com]

So it was you.

[he doesn't ask why he would glow. the answer would be too obvious and too painful.]

Does that happen a lot?

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[eschatologist.livejournal.com]

... Yes.

[there's no need to elaborate further. he has known. has already known. knows, now.]

It does not tend to happen often, no.

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[childrenoflilim.livejournal.com]

...it was. Um.

Kinda cool.

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[eschatologist.livejournal.com]

[and he does not respond for a moment. two. does not think to respond for a moment. two. before the microphone seems to kick on. before he finds himself searching. somehow. before he feels something in him seem to pull. seem to twist. seem to yawn or sigh. wake up. as he tries to read it again. tries to absorb what it is that he has said. tries -

kinda cool

and there is a stillness in him. for a moment. for a beat. or two. and there is a quiet in him. for a moment. for stretch of time. indefinable. echoing back and emptily. in some form of laughter. in the sudden bubbling of sound. a low kind of chuckle, though not unkindly. in the stranger way his shoulders tremble, unseen. in the way he cannot find a word to speak, but feels them weighing. feels them measuring themselves - the stops and the syllables. feels them melting upon the tip of his tongue. behind the cage of his teeth. and slowly. softly. laughs.]

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[childrenoflilim.livejournal.com]

D-did I say something funny?

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[eschatologist.livejournal.com]

[and it takes a moment to respond. again. takes a moment to stem the sound of laughter. takes a moment -]

It is not that, no.

... Thank you, Shinji-kun.

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[childrenoflilim.livejournal.com]

Ah.

You're welcome, Kaworu-kun.