37. video.

[childrenoflilim]

[shinji turns on the camera rather awkwardly due to the large bow in his right hand and the cello in his left.]

だいじょうぶ？

[he sits in playing position by force of habit.]

コミュニティ が僕にチェロをくれました。でも、ノートをのこました。。。今日からウィルスを終わるまでチェロを持てます。[a frown] いいですよ。[a bit quieter] いいですよ。 ああ、すみません。人々は僕のひくのが聞いて、それでは、どうぞ。悪い、ごめんください。 [before that though.  he picks up a crudely drawn picture of a duck then points to it, the cello, and himself a few times before putting it aside.  that should cover the basics. he hesitates for a moment before playing this and this in quick succession.  it's good.  really good.  don't let him tell you different.  once finished, he bows his head.] ありがとうございました。

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[makewayforroze.livejournal.com]

[She can't understand him and knows he can't understand her but she knows something that should be universally understand: she claps. It WAS really good.]

[video all the time]

[childrenoflilim.livejournal.com]

[he rubs the back of his neck. embarrassment does not need language.]

[heavenly-home.livejournal.com]

それは、シンジくん、非常に良かった。それはそのような心地よい音楽を聞くためにとてもいいです。あなたが空腹であれば、私は、今あなたのためにおにぎりを作ってあげる。あなたはどのような種類が好きですか？

oh my god i'm probably ruining japanese forever

[childrenoflilim.livejournal.com]

やだ、あれは特別じゃなくて、まだ習っています。そうして、心配しません。あらさがしないので、何でもしゅうるいはいいです。

[No, there's nothing special about it. I'm still learning. And don't worry. Since I'm not picky, anything you make will be fine.]

lmao i'm no better, this is all google trans at work!

[heavenly-home.livejournal.com]

あなたがより多くの練習、真治くんの必要が生じたときは、私はいつもそれを聞いて喜んでいるでしょう。私はその後、いくつかの梅といくつかのマグロを作ってあげる。

all i have is my brain and japanese book; my teacher would be so disapproving

[childrenoflilim.livejournal.com]

いーいいえ、かすみさんはの時間は大切にします。もっと大切なことがあります。。。僕を暮らしてください。おにぎりをつくってくれて、ありがとうござました。

["N-no, your time is valuable to you. There are more important things.... Please don't spend your time on me. Thank you very much for making onigiri for me."]

that is still impressive; i can recognize all of three katakana

[heavenly-home.livejournal.com]

私の喜びです。私はしばしばそのような音楽を聴く機会がありません。私が言うけれども、それは個人的に少し良く聞こえるように。

nah, not really, and haha, the joys of watching anime

[childrenoflilim.livejournal.com]

クラシカル音楽のコンサートに行ったことがありません。

["You've never been to a classical music concert?"]

[text, japanese (because this is easier for both of us)]

[heavenly-home.livejournal.com]

I have not. Though I did quite enjoy the opera, when I had that chance.

[haha yep, also oops there was supposed to be a 'ka' after that 'arimasen'

[childrenoflilim.livejournal.com]

Really? What was the opera like, Kasumi-san?

[...woops!]

[heavenly-home.livejournal.com]

Oh, I don't remember the title... but it was very nice, and the actors enthusiastic. I did not understand the words -they sing in Italian, I believe- but the music reflected the story in a way that helped me understand.

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[childrenoflilim.livejournal.com]

That's right. Almost every older opera is written in Italian. I've only ever heard the music. Seeing one in person...it must have been as wonderful as you said.

[heavenly-home.livejournal.com]

You should see one somtime with your friends. It's nice to appreciate such art together.

[oddfairy.livejournal.com]

Duck!

[childrenoflilim.livejournal.com]

[oh, he knows that english word. nodnod. that was indeed a duck.]

[oddfairy.livejournal.com]

[waves frantically]

[childrenoflilim.livejournal.com]

[wa...ves? what a strange, enthusiastic person.]

[oddfairy.livejournal.com]

[He grins then there's a poof of smoke and suddenly he has a violin - which he starts playing in a really bad screechy way.]

[childrenoflilim.livejournal.com]

[covers his ears. LORD HAVE MERCY.]

[oddfairy.livejournal.com]

[He keeps playing, grinning, mindlessly unaware of the racket.]

I'm getting better!

i actually went and looked up what alphabet shinji's name was spelt in I HAD NO IDEA IT'S KATAKANA

[stillneedawish]

あああ、シンジさん、すごい、チェロ！ちょうすごい！すばらしかったよ！

yeah, for symbolism/self-interpretation purposes!

[childrenoflilim.livejournal.com]

すばらしかったと思いますか。いいえ、僕は別にいます。プロ音楽家がすごいです。たとえば、ロストロポーヴィチとシャフラン。。。本当にわすれがたいですよ。でも、鹿目さんのさんじをくれて、ありがとう。

I seeeee. c:

[stillneedawish]

いいよ！でもシンジさんは別にいないと思う。実は、あたしは未来に、シンジさんがプロ音楽家になることをできると思う。あ、でも、ロストロポーヴィチさんとシャフランさんのことで、さやかちゃんに聞くよ！あたし、音楽のことをあまり知らない。

Re: I seeeee. c:

[childrenoflilim.livejournal.com]

そうですか。あの、本当に分かりません。ときどき私達は未来を見ません。とても、とても遥かにあるんですよ。はー、悪いでしょうか。

さやかさんはかなめさんの友達ですか。音楽をひきますか。

[stillneedawish]

うん、そうでしょうね。未来を見ないが、推量することは楽しいでしょう。

うん、親友だよ！音楽をひかないが、たくさん、たくさん聞く。

[video]

[hoboheim.livejournal.com]

それは、シンジ、本当に良かった。あなたのスキルは間違いなく向上しています。

[That was really good, Shinji. Your skills have definitely improved.]

[video; we can type in english and pretend it's japanese if that's easier!]

[childrenoflilim.livejournal.com]

[a shake of his head] ぜんぜんすすまない、ひさしぶりにひくから。

["I haven't played in a while so I haven't improved at all."]

[video; I would prefer that, yes!]

[hoboheim.livejournal.com]

["Oh, don't be so modest! You have talent. You should embrace it and feel proud. I know for a fact that I could never play a musical instrument as well as you. I just don't have the ear for it."]

[video; done and done!]

[childrenoflilim.livejournal.com]

["Anybody can learn music, sir. I'm sure you could if you put lots of effort into it."]

[Video]

[material_guy]

へー、　
なかなかじゃねーか

[Video]

[childrenoflilim.livejournal.com]

[greed giving him somewhat sincere praise? huh. color him shocked.] えっー、本当ですか。ああ、えーと、ありがとう。。。

[Video]

[material_guy]

音楽家って、かなり儲ける…　もうちょいと洒落になりゃわんさと女も寄ってくるぜ？

Re: [Video]

[childrenoflilim.livejournal.com]

[shinji scrunches up his nose in disbelief and no small amount of disgust. yep, that's more like the homunculus.] 多分、だめですよ。

[Video]

[material_guy]

なんだ、女にゃ興味ねーのかよ？　じゃ、男の方が…　そういう奴だったのか？

まぁ、最近、音楽家は大体あーいうこと…いややや。

[A-hem.]

それもいいぞ、ボウヤ。 父ちゃんは何も言わないから。 判断しないからな。

[ video ]

[eschatologist.livejournal.com]

[there's the soft click of the microphone and the buzz of static as the video kicks in. kicks on. and kaworu merely seems to listen, for a long moment. does not think to interrupt. fingers poised upon a spare pen. perched upon the couch in the living room. quiet. in posture in expression.]



[and though it takes a moment. he grants him an easier smile. something a little softer. a little quieter. more honest. even as his hand moves across something, unseen. drags the pen with it.

what comes up, a moment or two later, is a simple sketch of a smile. the fainter swoop of musical notes - harmonious. easy. as if to sign: ... It is good to hear you play again, Shinji-kun.]

[ video ]

[childrenoflilim.livejournal.com]

[shinji can't be sure of the vague emotions he seems to feel pressed all around him. he wants to embrace the pride and acceptance, but ever since--then, he has become wary of empathy. it's too easy for you and all you ever will be or were or are to become lost. the very idea was enticing. lay down your burdens. others will carry them. carry you. carry until you are so far from the start that you cannot find a way out.

but it was alright to revel in kaworu's praise, wasn't it? to smile a little brighter and blush, right? to bow his head in humble thanks, yes?]

[ video ]

[eschatologist.livejournal.com]

[]

[there is something of a softer note in the edges of his smile. something of a fonder note in the slope of his shoulders. and he simply shakes his head. gently. a sign without signing. a word or a voice without the presence of one: You need not thank me, Shinji-kun.]