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[childrenoflilim]

Talking to yourself from the past and the future is strange.  I don't remember being that energetic when I was small.  I hardly remember anything before--.  Yeah.  And he was happy.  My future self was happy too.  He said that it'll take a long time and things will look bad, but everything works out.  I'm not sure if he's right.  Lots of things could change before then.  I could mess everything up.  Still...it's a nice feeling.  Hearing that it might be alright from someone who knows.

Um.  This might sound strange.  Would anyone know where I could borrow a cello?  Just for a while.

Comments

[brokethecamera.livejournal.com]

A cello? Do you play?

[childrenoflilim.livejournal.com]

Yeah, but I haven't been able to for a while.

[brokethecamera.livejournal.com]

Wow! That's amazing!

[childrenoflilim.livejournal.com]

Huh? No, no, it's not amazing at all...!

[material_guy]

You that unhappy now, kid?

[childrenoflilim.livejournal.com]

Not as much as I was.

[makewayforroze.livejournal.com]

It's alright to believe things will be alright.

[childrenoflilim.livejournal.com]

...what if I'm wrong and things aren't alright?

[makewayforroze.livejournal.com]

Then you work to make them alright. You have to enjoy these things, not worry about what happens if they leave.

[childrenoflilim.livejournal.com]

Enjoying things as they happen. I haven't done that a lot. ...or ever, now that I think about it.

[stillneedawish]

Mm, I think that if you really want things to turn out okay, sooner or later they have to get better! Even if it takes a while.

The last virus really was a bit strange, wasn't it?

[childrenoflilim.livejournal.com]

You have to work for your happiness, don't you?

Yes. People always say you can't revisit the past or see the future. The community proved them wrong.

[stillneedawish]

Not all the time. But I think, well, it means more if you do have to, because then you can look back on everything and know that it was all your hard work that got you here now! At least, that's how I see it.

The community seems to prove people wrong about a lot of things.

[childrenoflilim.livejournal.com]

Do you think that means people take what happiness they have for granted?

I think it does it on purpose.

[killerbaseball.livejournal.com]

I could... get you one.

[childrenoflilim.livejournal.com]

You could? You mean...finding me one to borrow?

[killerbaseball.livejournal.com]

What I mean is that... I do have some money to spare at the moment.

[childrenoflilim.livejournal.com]

Mr. de Killer, they're so expensive! I couldn't ask you to buy one when I haven't done anything to deserve it or have no way to pay you back!

[heavenly-home.livejournal.com]

If it would not trouble you, dear, could you perhaps post your practice when you have found one? It is lovely to hear such music.

[childrenoflilim.livejournal.com]

There are much better players than me, ma'am. I could share them with you if you like.

[heavenly-home.livejournal.com]

I would like that, thank you. Though I would like to hear you as well, if it is not too much to ask.

[childrenoflilim.livejournal.com]

Umm...no, it isn't, but...are you sure?

[xxxing.livejournal.com]

Your future self is a douche and I'm gonna punch him in the nose. How old was he?

[childrenoflilim.livejournal.com]

He said he was 24. Please don't punch him. I mean, me. I mean.

Us?

[xxxing.livejournal.com]

And you're 15 now, yeah? So in 9 years time, on your 24th birthday, I'm gonna punch you right in the face. Look forward to it.